For the first time, in a long time, I actually woke up this morning and went straight outside to take a walk. I haven't done my morning walk routine in a really long time and I realize I actually miss it. Sure, it started raining and I spent the last half of my walk running through the rain. But that was all part of the fun of it. I need to be outside more, I need to slow down and take the time to just exist.
Bet you never thought you'd hear me saying I need to slow down. Usually, I'm always looking for some excitement in my life, some action, some adventure. Anything really. But recently it's just been one issue after another; with work and hair shows, or working with kids at the church, or dealing with the suddenly steady inflow of guys who won't leave me alone. I can't even say guys, more like beasts. That's not nice... you're right. Okay, guys.
It bothers me that I can't control who decides to be interested in me and who is not. But isn't that the dilemma of every woman? Why is it that the guys I'm interested in always want some other girl, and the guys who I don't want are always attracted to me? It doesn't make any sense, really. But it's just one reason why I'm really glad I went on a walk this morning. I can figure out how to deal with all of them.