"all this time i've been waiting, oh i cannot grieve anymore"

Holy crap! I have failed MISERABLY as a blogger. I don't even think I'm allowed to call myself a blogger any more. It seems one post every couple months is the best I can do in life. I just don't understand why I can't seem to be consistent with this shit. I swear one day I'm going to get it together. Really, I will. I promise....

"we stole our new lives, thru blood and pain"

After the hustle and bustle of the holidays, my house has finally returned to its original setting: silence. For the last 3 weeks I've had the excitement of my 2 older sisters visiting from California, my 2 younger brothers returning from college, and my father in from Nigeria. It's been a full house. But alas, that time has now ended, and it's just my mother and I again. I guess I should get back to reality and depart from my vacation dream world. Ugh.

I'm going to work tomorrow. And for the first time in a really long time, I'm not dreading the morning. I'm looking forward to it. With my January Resolutions in "go mode," I've felt really productive these last couple of days. I think I can keep it up till the end of January.

"find light in the beautiful sea, i choose to be happy"

Well hello there New Year!

Usually I am mighty excited about new years and I could go on and on about some fresh start and getting my life together and going after what I want and being a new person and all my goals and blah blah blah. But this year I've had an epiphany. Yes everyone, I have realized something very important and vital about new years: they lie.

A new year promises to be filled with unexplored adventures, undiscovered dreams and unrealized potential. But by February I can't even remember what my New Years Resolutions were. All that joyous expectation I had for the year eventually dies out about 4 weeks in and then what am I supposed to do with the other 48 weeks in the year?

So this year I've decided to do something different. I've made no new years resolutions, instead I made a January Resolution. I've simply crafted a list of things I would like to accomplish in January. By reducing my "year" down to a month, I can make sure every month of the year I am accomplishing my goals.

So without further ado, here are my January Resolutions:

January Resolutions
1. Pick and read one inspirational book
2. Work out every morning
3. Write a blog post twice a week
4. Apply to 4 jobs a week
5. Save up $1000 in a "rainy day" account

I figure that's simple enough to start out with, right?

On another note, unfortunately I did not get the job I applied to at my old high school. After a rigorous interviewing process, they chose someone else. So I guess I'll be living in good old Atlanta for a little bit longer... No worries, I can handle that. I know good things are coming soon for me.

But I hope everyone had a wonderful New Years partying, drinking, and bonding with family and friends. I sure did!

"what it meant to me will eventually be a memory"

I was given an assignment last night. I am to write a blog post about my high school. Something engaging that will make everyone want to read what I have to write. So I thought to myself, "Self, what are you going to write about?" Of course nothing came to me, so I figured I could come here and actually write a real blog post and perhaps that would inspire me to come up with some witty, wonderful school appropriate blog post to send in.

And what do you know, it worked! Now I'm currently in the process of writing two blog posts. I certainly hope I can create a unique enough voice that makes me stand out as candidate for this job, and still uniform enough to work for a school blog. I would just die if I got this job! A happy, healthy, wonderful death! After which, of course, I would be revived so I could actually do the job.

I guess you probably would like to know what the job is, right? Well, I'm applying for a Social Media Manager position. If you're thinking, "Sage, that's perfect for you! You already want to go into marketing and what better way than to market online. Plus you're such a fabulous blogger, it would be super easy to translate that into this job," then you are absolutely correct! I'm hoping my blogging skills and life long usage of social media will be my ticket back to Cali.

Seriously guys, I really want this. And I've really wanted a lot of things in my life, but I just want this one more. I hope I don't end up really disappointed. I know I'll be fine either way. Don't get my hopes too high now.

"i've got a world of chances for you"

I took a chance and put in a job application with my high school back in California. I've been saying that I need to start looking for a new job for a while now, so I guess this is my start. I don't necessarily want to move back to CA, but I have absolutely no problem moving back either. I welcome leaving or staying. I think there are a lot of opportunities available to me here in Atlanta and back home in California. I just need that foot in the door with a new job to jumpstart me again.

I take a lot of time to come here and rant and rave about my irritations regarding my life, my job, my family, my friends, my loves, (or lack there of). And its those moments that really propel me to the next.  I couldn't move on and be happy with my life if I didn't first let go of everything that bothers me while I live it. Most of my anger is fleeting. Most of my annoyance is short lived. A lot of my emotions are reoccurring, but isn't everyone like that? Every once in a while you may see a really hateful, maybe even downright bitchy post of mine that will make you say, "Whoa! Wtf happened to her?!" But rest assured I'm fine. I probably got over whatever issue pissed me off the second I typed the last exclamation point in my post.

So with that being said, I can't wait to really see what new job grabs my attention next. I always love meeting new challenges. Speaking of which, I've gone back to the challenge of online dating. Yes, I know, I've done this before. But it was so fun (and I'm just bored enough) that I decided to try it again. Wish me luck!