"but just one night couldn't be so wrong"

Everyone has those few things that make them happy for no apparent reason other than "I just like it." Recently, I've been indulging in a few quite regularly and it's actually beginning to border on obsession. These little guilty pleasures of mine are seriously becoming a problem. Who ever said you can't have too much of a good thing?

I've always been an avid reader. I read anything really, but recently I've been honed in and focused on erotic romance books. I can't seem to put them down. And it really doesn't help matters much that I have a Nook and an endless supply of free books with Barnes and Noble. Honestly, I've read 5 books in the past 2 weeks and I'm still working on this last one. No matter how many stories I find, there is always a new way to make two people coming together fantastic. I'll keep by bookshelf below updated so you can know what I'm reading.

As much as I enjoy reading these books, if I don't slow down soon, I'm going to end up missing all the deadlines for my grad school applications. As much as I want to find out if Bryn will escape and find her way back to William, I can't keep reading non-stop. Oh, but I so wish I could. Especially now that I don't have cable anymore.

I just don't understand why one issue always has to replace another. Before, I was too transfixed on television to focus on anything. So I cancelled my cable, and now I can't stop reading books. I just need one simple outlet that won't turn into a full fledged obsession! I guess I've always been an obsessive kind of person. From books, to tv, to men, to friends, to family. I obsess, a LOT.

But it's adorable, I swear!

"you only did it cause i told you to"

So I'm trying to revive my cardboard furniture business that blossomed so well last year. You know, the year I was unemployed and had nothing to do with my life. Yeah, well, I'd like to go back and revisit that time in my life and see if I can't bring some of that creative genius into my present.

I've been steadily collecting pictures of different ideas I've seen and would love to recreate. Currently I have a half finished bookcase sitting my office that really needs my attention. But I also have new plans of gorgeous things to create. I just need more time in my life.

In the meantime, I've been really focused on taking the GMAT. The test is next week and I finally just took my first practice test. Got a 650! Which is actually really exciting for me. My goal is a 700, so I'm only a couple points short. I think I can make this happen.

ALSO, you all know about my search for a car. Well, I'm super happy to let you know that the epic search is finally over! I have a brand new car (okay, not BRAND new, but close enough)! I went with a car loan and I couldn't be happier. I love my car. I've named him Nico.

"burn the streets, burn the cars"

I'm still searching for a car. The great debate is whether I should settle and buy a car "in my budget" or stand firm and get the car I want. Biggest problem? Yeah, that would be money obviously. I've been looking on Craigslist and I've been to CarMax a few times. But I just can't get the idea out of my mind that I should get exactly what I want. 

So, I don't have $10,000 to spend on a car. That's what a car note is for! Banks finance these things, so why can't I just jump into debt and get a really pretty Toyota Camry or Nissan Altima? That's all I want really. Unfortunately, I haven't been able to find this car for less than $10,000. But I am going to a car auction tomorrow and I can only pray to Lord Jesus that I find my car there. Just waiting for me. Saying sweet things into the air, asking me to drive him home. But if I really look at my finances, I have about $5000 to spend on a car right now. SO if I can't find my car at the auction tomorrow, I'm going to have to say screw it and get a car note. 

However, if spend $10,000 on a car, I'm definitely going to have to get full coverage insurance and not the nonsense liability insurance I had before. I think a 2007 Camry or 2005 Altima is certainly going to warrant some serious insurance. Unfortunately, that just hikes up the price of my car some more. UGH!  

Honestly I just want a car that will last me the next 5 to 10 years. That's normal, right? I figure cars should last at LEAST that amount. 

I guess I should really think about just getting whatever I can get for now, because I really need a car to get to work. I just don't want to have to save up money again later to buy the car I really want. 

"don't charge me for the crime"

Monday I went to court to contest the 3 tickets I got after my accident last month. I thought I was just going to say, "Hey, I was not speeding." And the judge would say, "Overruled!" And then I would pay a fine, it would be over and I would never have to go to court again. But no, instead I get there and the judge says, "Can you afford a lawyer, or do you need one appointed to you?"

... Um, no thank you. I just want to pay my fine. So I said, "No, I don't want to go to trial." And the judge has the audacity to say, "That wasn't the question." Excuse me? Sir, you are very lucky this is my first time in a courtroom and I am extremely scared and nervous right now, otherwise I would have a lot more to say to you. So in my scared and nervous state, I ended up getting a public defender and I have a trial date set for September...

I don't understand what just happened. I mean I really just don't understand what just happened. First of all, why the hell am I going to court for some traffic tickets? Second, why the hell do I need a lawyer?? And third, what the hell just happened???

Is this normal procedure? Is this what happens when you get a traffic ticket? What am I supposed to do? Please someone just help me out because I am so confused right now. I just, I just... don't understand what's happening. Someone may just need to explain the entire justice system to me because something just doesn't make sense. Why can't I just pay my fine and go home?

In the meantime, I'm still looking for a car. And on the plus side, this accident has helped to rekindle my love interest with Sir. He keeps calling me to see how I'm doing, and you know I'm just a sucker for such caring attention. Probably because he feels the accident was his fault, but hey, I'll take it. I'll keep dreaming of him; maybe one day good things will happen for us. 

Meanwhile, I need to deal with this court nonsense. 

"so we've become so cinematic"

It's crazy how you can plan every moment of every second together and still not have everything you imagined in your mind. This past weekend was supposed to end wonderfully and be filled with loving goodness; but alas, all did not go according to plan.

So as you all know, Sir came to visit me this weekend. I picked him up from the airport, he stayed at my house, we hung out, caught up on each other's lives, I showed him around Atlanta. Wednesday, Thursday and Friday he was all mine. And I loved it. Saturday he was at his hotel and attended his greek events he came out here for. I figured I should see him one more time before he left, so I offered to drive him to the airport on Sunday.

Apparently that was a bad move.

I ended up in a car accident before I even picked him up. It was raining that morning, the steering wheel started shaking and the car wheels refused to follow where I turned. So instead of turning as I should have, the car continued to drive straight and started sliding in the rain. I hit the wall on the side of the road and my car flipped over. Sitting in the car, upside down, I found a way to crawl out the window (yay for seat belts!). Unfortunately, my phone flew out of the car along with my iPod and purse. The paramedics recovered my purse but the phone and iPod were still missing.

I'm surprised to have gotten out of the car without a scratch on me. I went to the hospital just to get checked out; my only injuries were a bump on the head and scratch on my finger. Thank you, Jesus. Well, my car is gone, my phone is gone, (I later went back to the site of the crash to look around and I found my iPod).

Do you know how hard it is to reach anyone without a cell phone? Seriously, I should really start memorizing people's phone numbers.

Well, I guess this is a big enough sign to let me know that I didn't need to see Sir again. But really, I would have taken a phone call. "Hey, no need to pick me up. I'll catch a taxi." And all would have been well. Needless to say, he felt awful. But, uh, I think I should leave Sir alone... for now...