"looking good and feeling gorgeous"

Okay, I did it! I just spent $100 on Zumba DVDs. Lord knows if I don't workout, I just failed epicly.

Let's all pray I can have some self motivation and do it. I need some celebrity inspirations...

You know I'm always hesitant to get too excited about any of my new adventures, because, well, I have them so often. I never really know how long it's going to last. But I'm daring to get a little excited over this one. Who knows, maybe this will actually be the one that sticks.

And with spring in the air and my birthday next week, I need to be looking my best for all the reggae and african club nights I'm about to attend. Seriously, I've already bought my outfits and they're all about a size too small.

Of course I'm not expecting to fit them in time for my birthday celebration, but summertime should be a new adventure. But no worries, my bday outfit is sexier than sexy. You know I look good!

"girl look at that body"

I'm debating with myself whether I should I buy the Zumba dvd set and join in on the Zumba craze. Granted it's a bit late, but I figure I can join in any time.

I'm just extremely tired and bored of running and I really want to do something else that will serve the same function. Exercise is certainly not my favorite thing to do, but unfortunately I'm not one of those people who can eat whatever they like and never gain weight.

It takes a lot of work to stay this sexy. And unfortunately, I have a secret love affair with food.

Actually, it's really not so secret...

"am i in one of your music videos?"

I've been so busy working I didn't even realize that it's March and that means the Kid's Choice Awards are coming up! Now obviously this is something quite exciting for me because I'm basically a 12 year girl living in a twenty-something year old girl's body. 

So I had to go online and zone out on Kid's Choice promo videos on Youtube. After the day I just had at work, it was nice to slip back into my childish fantasy land. 

I do love the Kid's Choice Awards. And the new host for 2012!

"say bye bye"

I think I'm done.

This blog has been a savior for me in some of the worst times of my life. I loved having a place to recount all the endless details of how mundane, irritating, menial, redundant and just plain ridiculous my life was. But that time has passed. And I realize that I'm not that same person anymore. I'm in a different place in my life and I'm experiencing different things.

Basically the main purpose for creating this blog no longer exists. I don't need to rant to myself about myself any longer. I don't need a public forum to pour out all my frustrations about life anymore. I feel like the time has come for me to close this chapter of my blogging life and start a new chapter. A new blog.

I've been thinking about whether I should just shut down this blog and start a new one completely from scratch, or if I should just reformat this one and make it completely new. Either way, the old blog will be gone and a new creation will emerge in its place. I haven't quite worked out the details of what I will write about, but you can be sure it'll probably be more of my creative side.

I want to write about songs and movies. I want to share my poetry, my photography, my cardboard creations. I want to do book reviews. I want to write a short story, hell, I want to write a novel. I want to talk clothes, and shoes, and jewelry. Makeup, weight loss, sex, recipes, nail polish, hair styles, weddings, you name it.

I want to talk imagination, inspiration and creativity. It's about time I changed things up. Personally, I was getting a little bored.

confidence and pizazz

I know this guy. He's not my average kind of guy, maybe because he actually doesn't irritate me. He doesn't have that ego problem that I always seem to be attracted to. He doesn't make me want to prove everything he says is wrong.

In fact, I absolutely love listening to him speak. When I say he knows English, I don't mean he grew up in the US and can speak English. I mean he has studied the language and knows how to make you feel something with words. I don't think I could possibly describe the way he talks, but it's like listening to a dream. He's a very cultured man, you could say.

I've always said I could listen to someone talk about anything as long as they were passionate enough to carry me through the conversation (and as long as it's not science/math related). History, art, literature, sure. I'm game. I don't think just any guy could make English sound so wonderfully delightful.

He makes me want to read a book so I can actually have a clue what the hell he's talking about. I like feeling like he can teach me something. I like not being irritated, or uncomfortable around him. I like watching someone do something he loves because he wants to, not because it's his job. I like passionate people. It's too bad this guy is not in my life anymore. He is truly something. Next time I see him, I'll have to treat him to drinks, just so I can hear him talk.

I would say I wish I had something to be passionate about, but if I had any more passion for Disney, I might actually explode. But I do think we all need a little confidence and pizazz. Something to be truly passionate about. Something that makes us speak as if in a dream.